i loved you before i'd even met you:)

July 29, 2010

Dearest Carson,

Your daddy and I have been thinking about and praying for you for a very long time. We could not have been more thrilled or more thankful on December 1, 2009, when we found out that you were an itty bitty baby growing inside me! We had lots of fun telling our family and friends about you! March 25, 2010 was another fun day, because we found out that you are a boy! It has been an answered prayer and an absolute joy to carry you with me for the past nine months. Each time I feel you move inside me is such a special treat! It has been lots of fun preparing your nursery and shopping for you. Even the queasy stomach, sore back, swollen ankles, and sleepless nights have been sweet reminders of becoming your mama!

After carrying you for all this time, I cannot believe it is finally time to meet you. I will miss having you inside me, but I know that having you on the outside will be even more special! I’ve dreamed about what your sweet face will look like. I can’t wait to see those tiny fingers and toes that I’ve felt wiggling inside me! I’ve imagined cuddling, reading, and playing with you, and in four more days, I get to do just that! I can’t wait to see you, feed you, and learn how to take care of you.

I have wanted to be a mama for as long as I can remember. It is a dream come true, but I have a lot to learn along the way. Please be patient with me while I figure out how to be your mama. I am thankful that your sweet daddy loves you as much as I do and that we get to work together to learn how to be your parents. Throughout the pregnancy, he has taken such good care of us! We could not be more excited that you’re becoming a part of our family. We are thankful that you have four loving grandparents, two precious aunts, and many friends that love you and will be important to your growing and learning.

It will be such an honor to watch you grown and learn. It will be exciting to watch you develop various gifts and use them to glorify God and imitate Jesus. Carson, I pray that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.

I love you more than you know, sweet Carson Robert. See you soon!

--Your mama

Our first picture together!

I will never forget finally getting to meet you! It was a holy moment!

since i met you, i love you even more:)